Saturday, August 4, 2007

Woo Hoo, I was wrong!!!

Yep I was wrong. Apparantly I did not completely blow the interview. I start the new position Monday morning . That is part of the reason for the length of time between updates. The other part is you suddenly have 15 million things to do that you have been letting slide. At the same time, you really want to go collapse in front of the TV and just veg out for a couple of days.
Now having said that, I have to also relate the stress relief that I feel. It is amazing. It's almost like I feel externally justified in my existance. Most of the doubts that were beginning to creep in have vanished. Trust me, there were some doubts. Was I "out-of-date"? Too old? Too geeky? Too "out-of-touch"? Too specialized? Not specialized enough?Etc. ?? I am not sure about other people in this position, but I was on an emotional roller coaster.
You have to believe in yourself in order to sell yourself to potential employers. But if you are so damned good, then why did they let you go? Yeah I spent some nights with very little sleep. During the day, you don't dare let your friends, family, or potential employers see any signs of doubt or stress.
One other strange thing is when you tell someone about your success, you are a little disappointed that they don't immediately run around in little circles waving the flag or something. The usual response is "Cool, I knew it would happen". Man, I wish they had let me in on the secret! It was getting pretty lonely out there!

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